i'm beneaththedirt.
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a singularity of negativity, a repulsive thing under the soil
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i hate losers. but not myself, i'm one of the good ones
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it's like when a manga wants a character to be morally gray in that flashy gimmicky way that's harsh but intriguing
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so they balance it with them seeing merit in hard work or sticking to your principles or whatever
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and it turns out arbitrary and kind of stupid
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individuality is important and all, but it can be used as an excuse for everything until you end up totally disconnected from other people, stagnant, and really bad at everything
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this happens on the internet a lot. so many posts that are somehow idealistic and misanthropic at the same time. "every existing system sucks, so refuse to participate in any of them. create something new once everyone else follows suit." truly the mindset of a revolutionary and innovator. unrelated note: do you have a job
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i have a lot of gripes with the world, but the only interesting one is this: i hate the internet.
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it's the sort of thing that's so versatile and efficient that everyone does what's easiest and makes the most sense
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and what's easiest and makes the most sense is moving all social activity to a place where everything has cascaded into Influencers and Followers
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people talk about getting "parasocial" or whatever, but i think even if you keep a healthy distance from your idols or whatever, the concept itself is flawed to the core
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i am also totally done with people's weird idea that there's meaning and virtue to making something that reaches 1000000000 people. i donn't give a shit.
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i want to engage with people and make something really good. but i have lost the ability to see any meaning or morality in huge large-scale effects of a piece of art.
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i don't give a shit about people i've never talked to who will never talk to me. i'm not a robot, i can't see any importance in that. this is incapable of motivating me.
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i hate how the only way people engage with each other online is by trading journals and portfolios. you have no idea how long it took me to finish this blog, it's so hard to get motivated for this kind of communication...
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i think of interesting concepts, and my only role models are creatives. so i want to make stories of my own.
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however, along the way i have discovered programming.
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you know how in mangas, geniuses are like these weird ass people that do what they're good at all the time, because the act itself is fun and engaging for them whether they gain anything or not
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turns out i'm that kind of genius, but for a totally uncool skill. i get excited making really awesome tools me and other people can use, how cringe
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as far as i know, i am absolutely alone in this. everyone else is into programming as a career or to make games, and they rarely make anything expressive or designed around themselves.
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click the links at the top to see stuff i've made.
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email me for feature suggestions, bug reports
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or if you want something made. i charge $15 * however many hours i expect it to take.
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i can make web tools and godot classes.
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my specialties:
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storing/retrieving data from text
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efficient syntax
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user empathy/intuitivity
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geometry
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tools related to creativity
stuff i like
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manga
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battle manga i've outgrown but still think are rad as hell
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dragon ball
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yuyu hakusho, hunter x hunter
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one piece, naruto, bleach: shonen manga is usually best at the beginning.
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jojo
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seinen
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beastars, sanda
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dungeon meshi: i read the manga before it was cool
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mob psycho 100, one-punch man
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chainsaw man, fire punch
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goodnight punpun, dead dead demon's dededede destruction
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vinland saga
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spy x family
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yugioh
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medaka box
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blue lock
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girls' last tour, shimeji simulation
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games
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guilty gear
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metal gear solid
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ace attorney
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fallout
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overrated but good
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mother
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persona
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undertale/deltarune
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etc
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homestuck
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aqua teen hunger force: i watched a lot of this when i was like 9
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